26 12 2007
a burning sensation gnaws at the emptiness that dwells within the inner reaches of my heart.
i went from a high to a crushing low, without warning. no, i shouldn’t be like this.
i shouldn’t be hurting. i should be over this now. chanel, you were rejected.
you’re inadequate. you’re not enough.
no, no, you’re just a friend, nothing more.
why do you continue to have this tiny hope that things will turn around into some fairy tale?
you’re such an idiot.
i know i’m stupid.
i’m trying so hard to stop this feeling.
trying so hard.
WHY AM I ANGSTING OVER THIS TRIVIAL SHIT.
THERE’S MUCH MORE IMPORTANT THINGS IN MY LIFE THAN THAT SPI… ugh. I don’t want to insult him.
And I keep forgetting, I don’t have a life.
C’est la vie.
