http://solstar.iktib.com "Hello, I'm good for nothing, Will you love me just the same?" Tue, 19 Aug 2008 08:08:32 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en hm. http://solstar.iktib.com/2008/08/19/surreal-fornication-of-the-mind/ i dreamed we were in a cup, on a chair, bench. me next to him next to BB. he tickled me or something and our faces were close then we met lips hands his neck then i stopped and screamed OH MY GOD, BIANCA! D: and stopped abruptly, cause i thought it would disturb her this sudden and surprising ... http://solstar.iktib.com/2008/08/17/lies/   am i not one for change? i don't know. i haven't made any huge changes for myself. i tell myself i'm going to get organized and cleanly. and lose weight. those are changes, and i've failed in all for the most part. i said i'd stop being lovesick, and that only got worse. said i'd get ... http://solstar.iktib.com/2008/08/01/irritable/ I haven't been here in so long. Much has or hasn't happened. I was on a week vacation with my family in Atlantic City. It's the summer, I haven't done much.. but I have seen a few friends. August is around the corner. Nick is out of my life and I'll probably never hear from ... http://solstar.iktib.com/2008/07/31/i-look-at-you-and-wonder/ sigh. i haven't been here in so long. i don't know why i don't type in here much more often. probably because there isn't much to share. tomorrow i'm going to six flags with Sunny and BB. it's spring break, though it doesn't feel like it. i started talking to my canadian friend again. he's pretty odd, ... http://solstar.iktib.com/2008/04/21/44/ moody. http://solstar.iktib.com/2008/03/29/43/ i dunno. i'm feeling this to be a good day, but i'm rather upset that sunny can't talk to me. yeah, we talk. but nothing too deep. it's always just petty things or silence. i don't feel much of a connection to him. maybe, it's just how it is now. perhaps, i'm rushing ... http://solstar.iktib.com/2008/03/29/whats-so-goddamn-funny/ haven't been here in a while. nothing much going on. except, i'm giving up on that false hope. sunny never did and never will feel anything for me so why do i think things might suddenly change however, I don't really care much for the idea of some nucklehead feeling on me or telling me lies ... http://solstar.iktib.com/2008/02/25/41/ my heart breaks again and i resolve to break off this wild fascination that's left me in a state of devastation for i cannot take it anymore another shut door in my face, leaving a piece of me shattered, disgraced greedy men take what should've never been within reach and they take and take while we give and give and live for their sake however, ... http://solstar.iktib.com/2008/02/25/pieces-of-me/ it's 1:40 am, and i'm crying. why? just finished 'Tuesdays with Morrie' A great nonfiction book. I've learned so much from reading this book. I want to read it again & again and soak it up like a sponge. All in all, what I've gotten out of it in my first read is something I've already ... http://solstar.iktib.com/2008/02/10/crying-time/